Day 1/365 – 2017: Keeping Hopes Alive

Last year, I restarted blogging on WordPress in a full fledged way. That time my enthusiasm was high not for blogging only, but also for life, for meeting various goals in my life. I wrote the first 65 days out of 366 days of 2016. I even started writing on 66th day, but I could not finish it, and it remained unpublished (you can see a screenshot of that below!) Then, though I was very unwilling, I stopped writing. Life literally happened to me! 

On March 13th I was appointed a lecturer of English Literature in a university. The university is almost 3 hours away from my home. So, I shifted to the nearby locality (Maynamati, Comilla – that is where the university is situated) with my only child leaving my husband alone in Dhaka. My mom joined with me to support me leaving her husband alone in Chittagong. So, we – two and a half woman – started our journey there. It was the nicest journey I have ever had in my life. I always knew I would be loving teaching as a profession, but I never knew I would be loving it this much. My students were simply awesome. And, how nice it was to meet so many different personalities in a day! I was teaching them, counseling them, interacting with them, correcting their mistakes, celebrating occasions together, and et cetera. For the first time, I realized how a teacher can be in charge of assisting the students in shaping their lives. In other words, teachers assist in shaping a nation. Oh! How a sacred duty is that of a teacher! So, starting my life as a teacher I felt blessed. I was in peace.  

That March of 2016 was full of blessings for me. While I was happy dealing my new life, and profession, another great news was waiting for me. Just two weeks after joining in the university, I came to know that I had conceived my second child. I was the happiest. Though the second pregnancy was very tough for me, but I handled it somehow. Now my second child, my son is on earth, and I have forgotten what pain I have gone through all this time.

Now, I am in Dhaka enjoying my motherhood, and maternity leave. But, for few days, I was feeling very uncomfortable with me! The fact that I could not meet some very very important targets of 2016 is pricking me all the time. I knew I had gone through some sudden big changes to keep myself in the track to meet my goals. Yet, I could have tried harder. Last night, on new year’s eve, this thought became scary for me. I was shuddered with utter fear, and hopelessness that I might not be able to fulfill my targets anymore. I have felt that I have lost my starting point! 

It is a shiny, cold morning today. It is the first day of 2017. Waking up I felt that if I am not courageous enough to deal with the leftover situations of 2016, I should not be a hopeless at least. And, that I did not want to lose my hopes worked like a magic! I am writing down again, and I am confident that I am starting my unfinished projects again right today. I know now that one should not abandon hopes in life. Life is dead if hopes are dead. So, keep your hopes alive. It is 2017, a new year – your new chance to live again. 

A very happy new year to all. Wish you, and the world peace and prosperity.

Advertisements
Day 1/365 – 2017: Keeping Hopes Alive

Day 54/366 : Ah! The Happiness!

image

Oh God! My heart is leaping up with joy! It is raining! Yay! Rain of the Spring! Wow! I love rain in the Spring. I love the grumbling of the cloud, and the rumbling of the thunder. I love to ‘listen to the rhythm of the falling rain, … pitter pater, pitter pater, … pitter pater. Ah! I am feeling so good, and so pure. Oh! My joys know no bound! For how long I have been waiting for the rain! The smell of the newly soaked soil … I love it. Truly, the Spring is all about love. The other times, it rains in the late Spring. We call it Kal Boishakhi – the nor’wester – meaning a storm prior to Summer ( in Bengali Boishakh), that is in the Spring. But, the Spring of the year is only 10 days old, and it is raining already! But this is not the Kal Boishakhi. It is just a moderate thunderstorm. Kal Boishakhi is really maddening.  Whatever, it is raining, and I am the happiest. The nature is really in need of the shower. It has been dusty, and gray all this time. Now, the new, and the lovely green leaves are shooting out with colorful flowers, and tonight’s rain will give them a fresher look. I am waiting to see the rain-smelled morn tomorrow.

Thank you, mother nature. The rain is washing away not only the dust of the earth, but also the impurities, pain, depression, frustration, and the hopelessness of my mind. I love you, mother nature. I love you a lot.

Listen to the Rhythm of the Falling Rain is one of my favorite song by The Cascades. Sharing the song with you ~

Listen to the Rhythm of the Falling Rain by The Cascades

Day 54/366 : Ah! The Happiness!

Day 17/366 : Fight the Sorrow Alone

A proverb goes: ‘A joy shared, is a joy doubled. A sorrow shared, is a sorrow halfed.’ Undoubtedly, it is a true saying, or else, it would not be a proverb! 😁

But, I sometimes differ on this proverb. Especially, on the ‘sorrow’ part. Sometimes, I feel that when a sorrow is shared, it actually gets doubled in stead of getting halfed. From my point of view, it is better to ignore, or forget the sorrow. And, it is best to eliminate the sorrow solving up the root issues.

Most of the sorrows are generated from the real life troubles, failures, relationship complications etc. It is by nature cruel, and destructive. It is never healthy to keep sorrow burdened in the heart. That is why, it is said to speak out the sorrow to unburden the heart.  But, sometimes, in the process of unburdening the heart, we actually nurture, and ponder over the sorrow items too much. The more we talk, and think about it, the more the reasons of the sorrows get pinned down in our brains, and hearts. From this rages, revengefulness, envies, frustrations, hopelessness etc. can born. These new negativities eventually kill our time, peace, energy, dream, enthusiasm to move forward. In stead of solving out the main reasons, we keep playing, and pampering on our sulking emotions that bar us to think logically, and calmly to take the next steps. That is why, I think it is good trying to ignore, or forget the sorrow (but, never forget to learn the lessons from the sorrow!) to avoid other negativities in life. If the reasons of the sorrow seem a larger hindrance for future, it is better to concentrate on the whole thing to find a way out. But, still, I will say that even in this situation you better do not share. Sharing with other mind, or too many minds may risk your focus to be distracted.

Another problem of sharing sorrow is letting other know your weak, and fragile points. And, if you do not know your true friends unfortunately, you are actually making the sharing a fatal blow for your future. My opinion is that  if you are a struggler, be a struggler with dignity. Whatever disastrous the sorrow is, try to fight it alone keeping your head up. Once you win a battle alone, you will get a huge confidence for future battles.

Also, in sharing you will never know when, and how who will be getting cynical, and judgmental on you willingly, or non-willingly. This may become the salt in your injury. Again, sharing can increase your tendency of depending on others too. It harms you doubly : first of all, you will be losing your confidence, tolerance, and decision-making power, and secondly, if next time you do not get any support you will be losing control over you, will be getting restlessness, and collapsing badly out of depression. So, it is always wise to be in the practice of dealing one’s own situation alone.

I am not all in all against of sharing sorrows. You must be sharing pains with your trusted ones, and getting helps, and opinions from your prudent friends in your sorrows, but before getting any help from others, at least for once, try to fight with your sorrows alone as long as possible with full-fledged courage, and positivity.

Wish you the victory over sorrow that is fought alone.

image

Day 17/366 : Fight the Sorrow Alone